Last Bonnaroo I slept beneath a car and below a dinosaur battle. This combat took place atop a card table extending off the bumper of my ride. Ants bit me at night, leaving their itchy hickeys behind. I scratched at their affection. A roll of carpet acted as barrier between me and the long and dewy grass. I used mats and a tarp for blotting the sun while still allowing a breeze to pass across my body. I later discovered the mats to be those my country dogs have sat on for years with matted fur and tick-riddled bodies. For four days days I continually sniffed my crotch and pits, unable to decipher why I smelled of an open grave. It was under these conditions I’d receive my rest. It came after tiring days of music and wonder beneath sun and starlight. I was loving the experience, feeling a weightless sense of joy after a year of isolated living in Minneapolis. Roo was the reset I needed — a catalyst for recalibration. I knew this was a place I’d always come. I was already planning for the next year, figuring I’d upgrade to a shade canopy and more monsters for the battle.

Throughout the fest I carried a free candy dispenser that anyone could pluck from. I like to always have some little thing for interaction at festivals and so designed what I thought to be goofy and fun. This helped me depart from my solo-ghost ways and talk to the good people, if only for moments at a time. The dispenser was made from a bloody baby whose head I drilled full of holes. Each was filled with suckers and licorice that melted in the intense Tennessee heat. The contraption sat on the back of my pack and people who wanted some pulled their pieces out the baby’s head. Again I was already thinking of upgrades, envisioning the infant upside-down with a plastic barfbag over her head. From her crotch would grow flags and flowers.  I’d glue lighters to her hands and have cigs and suckers planted across her upturned feet.

It was my best Roo yet, which is something I’ve noticed I say every year. I saw tons of great shows, pointed a Big Mac at Paul McCartney, and discovered that camp neighbors used my table for their coke-snorting platform. I developed seven hundred crushes but acted on none. Within toilet walls I sprayed jizz across feces from people raised around the world. Matt and Kim called for the crowd to bodysurf while fucking. I was in the thick of this. There were dozens of people passing above, all with their dicks and pussies zipped-in. That’s too bad as I was hoping to bury my face in something that smelled of dog dick. But the energy was untouchable as I peeped floating people on a sea of hands in every direction. The madness of this all reduced me to uncontrolled laughing in fits of joy.

The final night, Sunday, ended with a drunken rager that stretched ’til dawn. We danced in the rain to music blasted out a sketchy rave truck on Shakedown Street. The official festival closed with Tom Petty but those unready to return to the real gathered at camp aside this mobile music machine. People danced for hours, passed bottles, and a completely naked girl tied glow sticks around her body to illuminate each feature. I didn’t mind. Nor did anyone else. But nobody took a knee to masturbate in the mud. Like every time I see something like this I only thought how cool it was in regards to how comfy she was with her body. The crowd carried on with sharing booze and their final desperate attempts for a weekend hookup. I shared the mini-liquors hid in my shoes and drank from the endless supply passed from person to person. It downpoured on everything and yet we squeezed these last drops of joy for hours more. I walked back to camp at 5am, wet, wasted, and ready to pass out. I did just that.

Morning came much too soon. As I woke still wet from sleeping in the backseat I saw how much wonderful shit was being  left behind. I’d read that people abandoned things as if they were kings but had never stayed to see for myself. During Monday’s late morning rain I saw all kinds of folks fleeing with just their cars and clothes. The farm is over 700 acres and holds more than 80,000. So everywhere I looked held the appearance of a once vast city now fading to ruins. A few abandoned canopies were in sight. I was wanting one so as to upgrade my shade from the card table to something more fit for a six foot man. As I sat there I saw pickers combing through campsites and thought I’d try my hand at their craft. I tied a grocery bag to my head, threw a 101 Dalmatians towel across my body, and walked the muddy grounds on feet wrecked from a weekend of dancing.

I scored beer, water, Red Bulls, granola, pop tarts, liquor bottles, coolers, chairs, and a brand new $100 canopy. I even took shit I’ll never use like pop and charcoal. I gravitated toward sites where they even abandoned the tent, figuring that’s where the most would be left behind. Upon arrival I’d make calculations as to what I could utilize and what must be passed over. I found enough to fill a semi and even noticed cargo vans cruising the campsites, stopping to load good hauls. But most were on feet like me, filling arms, carts, and backpacks with treasure. These were my people. I grabbed up what I could and carried it back to my car before returning to gather more. Some things couldn’t be be rescued like squeezed-out ketchup and open peanut butters now filled with rain. But food-wise there was enough good stuff to feed both me and every other hog in the county for years. I’d already been eating ground scores throughout the fest though under the cover of night. Now as I went through the abandonment I sucked down melted Oreos from someone’s split-in-half styrofoam cooler. Another scavenger with an armload of chairs passed by and looked on in disgust. “So you’re just eating everyone’s old food, huh?” My fingers were sticky with the melted chocolate, my head still wrapped in a grocery bag. I didn’t mind. The shit was free and that made it delicious. Before long I began imagining all I’d both gather and gobble for the next year. I was gonna upgrade my Roo experience on every level. But in the meantime I took the lessons learned and sprinkled them across the rest of my existence.